rejection/acceptance

lately i've been having difficulty with past rejections
some i've carried for years...and years [stored consciousness]
my mind spins with reasons why i have been so shunned...hurt
i search sometimes so often for so much acceptance and love [p.s. thanks for all of the hugs]
i wish...that i could just find this love in myself...
the love that would mirror how i wish others would love me...
perhaps that would solve so many things
xo