life

seems so difficult at times
you try and play by the rules...and find that you're the only one on that team most of the time
media is telling you how to look and feel, what to wear
everyone gives you an opinion of what you should do in your life...and you're not even asking for advice
many times it feels like beating a brick wall

i grow weary of my struggle

i'm going to post my journal writings for the first few days of the tnh retreat